13 Jan Inspired by events with Vic

Here we go again,

Here we fucking go again.

I like someone and thank goodness,he/she likes me back. It goes well for weeks and I mean,it goes REALLY well. So I start to think,okay maybe I could do this relationship of a thing,okay just maybe I could consider becoming committed to just this one. It is a good feeling I tell you,we’ve all been there(I hope) and this time it is one of those moments I‘m pretty sure the universe wants me to experience.

The universe is somewhere putting all these cards together,in one alignment for me to meet my today’s happy called-Lotanna.

Victor.

I see a lot of things,in fact I have gotten really good at predictions when I meet someone. When I meet a guy for the first time,I could easily tell where or how it would all end(I think if you’ve dated as much as I have,you would inevitably have this gift Lmao) or maybe it comes with a certain age,could we call this discernment? I mean it should be on some level right?

Okay,so I could tell from a mile away if someone is serious about me and/or if I would keep him in my life. I know when I want just sex,when it’s just to hang out,when I want to be desired(yes,for some of my men it’s been games to me) more like a matter of conquest,then I lose an interest after he’s fallen.

With all my foresight,I really did not see Vic happening in any way;romantically being the least but I guess,the universe stays fucking with me.

My feet has been swept off by the kindest and most genuine man I have ever come across. The way he looks at me, like I am beauty herself. He kisses me with such intensity that the passion last for hours gone.

Constantly reaching out to hold my hands like it is the last thing he wants to feel. He’s patient with me,he’s trying to know me,on all levels ladies.

He says ‘it’s okay to talk to me,I want to know you. I want you’.

I want you

I want you

I want you

No one has ever said that to me outside the sexual context but HIM,but Vic…I have no words.

I read the true depth of those words.

He sees me.

I see how he brightens up when I walk into the room.

He wants my progress,

We talk about our future.

He scares me,

I am scared.

I asked him the other day why he chose to ask me to be his girlfriend,because I’m a whole mess and he goes ‘why not you?’.

I’m one to sing about love and cry on how much I want it but deep down,I feel unworthy.

His affections and heart is healing me,bits by bits.

He told me the other day ‘you are very easy to love and anyone who told or made you believe otherwise,lied’ ‘YOU ARE WORTH EVERYTHING I GIVE/DO AND MORE’.

Guy!!!! Na me be this??😂😂

I have an attitude and he still likes me

I am rude and he still likes me

I am dumb and he still likes me

I am struggling with myself in all ways but he still likes me. My point is,I have never felt this much love coming from someone else ever before and it is such perfect and imperfect timing.

It is perfect because he loves me just like I want,just like I love too.

And it is imperfect because I do not feel absolutely fit enough to reciprocate all his good but I cannot turn down his love because I’m not fully prepared.

This is what I prayed for.

This is what I’m working for.

This is all I want.

I want love

I want your love Vic and I’m thankful we found each other because ready or not I am willing to make this work.

Thank you my love for such beautiful true moments,that would forever be cherished.

All my love Papi💋❤️