11 Nov UNHINGED by StoryMalitells

I’m in a place where I need guidance, where I need that upper being to shine His light on me but he’s mute.
Who is Allah? Who is God?
Are they one?
Are they the same?

I grew up in the ways of the Lord. I was thought what he did, I read what he did, how he destroyed cities for the ones he loves, his chosen ones, I thought he created us all in his likeness.

why do you get to favor some and let others suffer?
Why do I have to struggle to get what I want,? Sometimes I believe; sometimes I don’t. Is it the devil? Is it that I lack faith? I have seen him do things for me, but when I need him most he’s no where to be found then He shows up later and does that? Or does He? Or my mind has already been accustomed to this situation and then it seem normal to me and maybe I accept that such situation has been resolved.

Why are kids starving in Yemen? Doesn’t He love them?

Why is there a war in Syria, affecting kids and the innocent, doesn’t he care?

Why are there people in the government shoving poverty down our throats and yet fill their pockets? Is this not the same God that killed a man for pulling out? Is it not the same God that ordered the death of a family just because a man stole and hid? The same God that made another man king just cause the reigning king offered him a sacrifice of thanksgiving?

What changed? They say a child changes a lot in ones life, was it the death of this Child that changed him? I don’t know? Who am I gonna ask? Who am I gonna talk to? But I believe in Him, I think I do, but I’m just confused, a lot of things don’t make sense.

I’m praying to a God that won’t talk back.

-Storymalitells