18 Apr Where I’m at Right Now

Its been a really good couple of months. I moved officially to Lagos,I got a new job,an apartment,new friends and i’m just chilling. Now let me tell you the truth. I’ve been doing a lot of new things lately,taking on new projects and trying to do all that I had stalled on before,procrastinated and always wanted to do. Its really a struggle being an adult,especially when you have to grow up so quickly because of circumstances. So when I say its been a really good couple of months I don’t mean that in the most flamboyant way of it but more of the learning and struggling aspect.

My move to Lagos and transition to Adult life has taught me things that I probably should know at 40. I’ve gotten to a level of confidence that it scares me at times. I’ve been so embarrassed that I maybe walking on the street right now and my skirt flies up(with no panties underneath)and I wouldn’t even be bothered.  I used to be the girl that compromises all of herself just to be with someone she liked,I am very opinionated and voice it out but I noticed that I’d rather let people I love have the final say or I just loose my voice in discussions. I used to be a lot of things,not all bad or shallow but good too. Where I’m at right now is a whole lot of change/step up. I’m at a point in life where I don’t care anymore,its what people call ‘Savage’right now but its not savagery for me;its not a trend for me. I just really care about getting better,developing myself,setting goals and achieving it,building networks or connections as my people call it. I’m almost too serious because I really want to succeed and be so much better than I am right now.

I never used to like the 9-5 job but I’ve got to say that I love my job! I wrote a post relating to this,here it is https://goldgerryblog.wordpress.com/2018/03/26/why-i-love-mondays/. Its absolutely insane because it was totally unpredictable. I didn’t like the fact my mum left home so early and came back so late at night exhausted. I’m in a space that allows creativity to breathe,a space that challenges your mind(its all fun with networking and chatting with friends)but then you see someone on his system or hear the lady seated across you speaking huge numbers and you snap out of your dulling mood. I’m an Entrepreneur. I have a fashion business(which I need to work on more seriously),I have a Blog(that I have big plans for), and I’m also working on moving my career forward as a TV Personality,so if you’re not adding to the progress of any of the above or creating other avenues for revenues,I don’t want to listen to you.

I don’t like to think that I’m rude,I’ll rather say that I know what I want and people I want to talk to. I no longer waste my time trying to have discussions with people I know I really do not want to talk to anymore because bro number one ‘I am broke and looking for money’ and if that discussion ain’t giving me money or brilliant ideas then why waste my time? Number two,I just think the person is plain stupid or downright boring. I no longer have the time to wallow or talk about heart strings,most especially from the past. I’ve had guys tell me they miss me and the first thing I ask is Why?,Why do you miss me Sir? One I think they say that because he feels I want to hear that,because there are girls that fall for that or the most annoying-the guys themselves don’t even know why they miss you. I feel like I have spaces in my memory. Not only do I not remember so much of those things that used to hurt me but I don’t remember the things I don’t remember anymore. If I squint or try so hard to remember a person,then you’re not important and never was. I have to see potential to try sustaining a discussion with someone and I have to know that its heading to a positive and productive place. That’s all.

So where are you right now Gold? I’m in my office writing this post right now but really i’m just in a tight corner in life trying to live a humble life because i’m broke hahaa. I’m trying to be better by August than I was in January,in almost every aspect. So whatsup,what you been up to lately.