29 Oct Notes To Myself

I don’t think it should come as a surprise when I say ‘I talk to myself’; because in my head,every writer does. I mean how could you explain someone bringing out thoughts from their head into words and most fascinating,it being relatable to almost every person.

Well,I not only have it in my head, I actively open my mouth to discuss with myself because it’s satisfying and I am my own best friend. Most times during these moments,I get the light bulb incident where a brilliant idea pops up and what do I do? JOT IT DOWN(Always).

My Literature teacher in high school used to say ‘A pen down is always better than a memory’ (I rephrased,my bad 😂) but you get the point.

So here are personal notes to myself,from those times I’ve been hurt,happy and angry. Enjoy!.

 

I WANT TO LOVE

I want to love

I want to be loved passionately

I want a love so intentional that the air gets envious

I want to wake up to morning texts calling me beautiful and wishing well to the rest of my day

I want to be cherished

I want obsession and love

I want to be spoiled, and I mean it sexually, emotionally and financially.

I want a Sugar Daddy

I want riches

I want to be loved richly

I want to have the flowers

I want to be touched by someone who knows the value of every curve on my body

I want someone who knows the stories that come with my scars

I crave partnership

I yearn for friendship

I just want to love and be loved at the same rate I put out.

 

‘My vagina dies each time I have sex with someone I do not want to’

CRYING CLEANSES MY SOUL

It’s been an emotional 2 months and the past 3 weeks has been good news and congratulations. In as much as I’ve been feeling really good,I just get really sad or maybe feel like a deep part of me is sad(can’t describe it) but this evening,I think I may have just unlocked one of the reasons.

I just cried!!

I cried hard

And I remember that the last time I cried this way was last year(I basically cried my way all through last year)and I’m so thankful for growth. Most of all I am grateful that I could express how I feel and show my emotions in these little ways(crying)and I honestly do feel better.

My point is,I know we are all dealing with devils,a few or mostly nobody knows about and there are parts of ourselves we do not want others to see and I maybe not know exactly what you’re going through but I want you to know that I understand your hurt and burden and most importantly;God sees it all and he loves you despite.

I am praying for you,please be strong and have faith. God loves you beyond your problems.

Gold Gerry

 

MEN ARE BLIND

I think a lot of men are myopic.
I’m no Doctor,but I’ll prescribe some medications for this short sight.
It is so sad to watch the number of boys and men fall into this hold and get entrapped with this disease. It is high time we set up a ‘medical camp’ to facilitate their healing process, but how could you heal someone that doesn’t know he’s sick?.

How do you tell someone they’ve got body odor without being offensive?.

How do you even make someone come into the light,if all they do is rejoice cause they’re leading in the dark.
Please tell me how.

I am sick and exhausted of meeting them. The men that only see my lips,boobs,ass and vagina. My head can’t take it anymore but what do I know, I am trying so hard to change the narrative or maybe a mindset that has sunk deep beyond generations.

Maybe I should focus more on my attraction for ladies.

I saw a lady in the club the other night and honestly each time she pops into my mind…I get the chills. It is only a girl that could make me so shy to speak to her,I am fascinated by everything Woman and it necessarily has nothing to do with sexual preference. I love all of Woman, in everything.

 

Okay, let me not bore you.

We would probably continue some other time.

I hope you enjoyed my thoughts because I love sharing it with you, check out my previous posts if you haven’t already.

Until next time,peace.