17 Jun Faults in Gold

I think I’m a little too heartbroken to understand so why then do I think you’ll look at me sanely
I think I’m a little too overwhelmed by how I feel and the depth of my love for life which is why no one really phantoms the words I say in attempt to express it.
I think I fall too easily in love or maybe I express myself oh so boldly,loud and early that I scare people away.
I think I think too much,say too much and live too much that it drives people away.
I think I have a lot of energy that no one could ride along with me.
I think on some days that I want a relationship but then I wake in the morning and feel choked by the one giving it to me. Somedays I feel I couldn’t give my heart to just one person and other mornings I see the possibility of giving my all to just ‘the one’.
Some days I’m fearless so I live carelessly.
I say exactly what I feel/want
I eat so badly.
Laugh out so hard my stomach begins to hurt more than usual
Sing a particular song about a million times cause that’s what I feel like. So I live in the moment,and on other days I’m so self-concious. I care about what people think about me and I become my own Judge,Jury and Prosecutor.

Maybe I’m in search of something that doesn’t exist. However,now that I think about it-we only search for things that are calling out to be found and so I’ll find that which I seek.

My faults are in my heart. The way I see life and choose to live it everyday. Like it’s a brand new day (obviously) but more importantly like it’s my last.
I love hard
Hate hard too
Breathe hard
I touch to remember
I speak and listen
I do all that I love and tell everyone that matters to me that I love them because I mean it.
I am me and being me is my fault and also the most beautiful thing I know.

Gold Gerry