Goodbye Z

I’m sad;I’m really sad and I feel like I’ve just disappointed myself.

This feels like a breakup and I’m so confused as to how we got here but I mean God knows best yea?.

I’m really scared that this is actually happening.

I cannot believe I just blocked you off my social media and I can’t believe we haven’t spoken in 2 days(for something so minor) but maybe it really isn’t if this is where we are now.

I admit I have the biggest flaws and thanks to you for pointing others I wasn’t aware of before. Now that I’m aware of them,I can only keep trying to improve and make myself happy.

I wish I could send this to you,but I do not want to keep embarrassing myself by leaving more messages that wouldn’t get any response,so I’m going to write this for myself because I am deeply sad and I want to be able to sleep without cloudy thoughts.

I knew this was going to end,I mean I saved your number as ‘Ephemeral’ for Christ sake. I just thought it’ll be in a much better way and I wouldn’t fear living my life without you in it.

I just want to say that I’m sorry(for everything),I know I hurt you and I acknowledge that;so I am really sorry.

I am also grateful. Thank you for being with me. I opened up to you when I thought the possibility had sailed. Thank you for being so kind,generous and thoughtful.

Also,goodluck in everything.

It’s always going to be love from here.

Goodbye✌🏾