I got Cheated on💘

Its 16th August 2018 a day to my birthday and I am hurting again over the guy I love and once thought loved me.
My chest is so full and I want to scream because I feel I’ve been living a lie.
I’m really tired of crying and asking questions cause I don’t understand how you say you love someone and then hurt them the way you did to me.

I am confused,ashamed and feeling so helpless.
I gave my all,I literally did it all but why did you cheat on me B??????????!!!!!!!
Didn’t I suck your dick right? Didn’t I talk to you right? Am I not enough? What the fuck?!!!