To the Man I once loved- Mr R

I fell in love with a stranger about 6 years ago,and I fell in love with him so hard that I may have lost myself in the feeling. We suddenly stopped communicating with each other with no words explained whatsoever and it’s so heartbreaking to me cause I don’t think I ever really told him how I felt,So it’s quite difficult to get closure. On some days I think about him (so much) and about two weeks ago I almost sent him a message but decided to sleep on it first. I woke up and was glad I didn’t do so because I wasn’t  sure how it was going to be received.

So here I am,pouring out my heart to someone far away,who probably has forgotten about my existence lol and I’m doing it in the safest way I think I could (putting it on here). Hope you enjoy.

Hey. How you doing?
It’s been longer than ages since we last spoke and I know it’s weird getting a message from me outside the blue.
I just can’t get you out of my head. I have tried,but it never actually works. I don’t even know why I’m writing this to you,Not still sure I’ll send it when I’m done but I just need to let my heart pour.
I fell in love with you the very first moment I saw you (crazy/creepy)I know, but it is what it is and every single day I tell myself I’ll get past it,I’ll outgrow my feelings for you but it never goes away.
I don’t think I ever told you this which is probably a major reason we’re where we are right now in each other’s lives at least to me. I never wished for anything more than to be with you and it breaks my heart so much that I don’t wake up to your voice or messages.
So I just wanted to reach out to say that I miss you so dear much,I love you and you’ll always be special in my heart.
With kisses,
Gold.