Are you HAPPILY SINGLE or you’re just UNHAPPY?

Are you happily single or you’re just miserable?

I used to think that it was weird for me to get tired of dating,till I got a message from someone telling me how exhausted he is of the circle.

Now here are my thoughts on that:

I feel the same way and I think recently it’s even been more. It feels like I’ve lost interest for any regular person who just wants to ‘hang’. I’m not getting the spark I think I’ll need to say yes,this is who I am willing to try with. Nah.

And honestly,it’s been a ride of emotions this year…I cannot even explain it all if I tried but I wouldn’t necessarily use the term ‘unhappy’ to describe what I feel.

I feel out of place for the most part right now.

I do not know my left from my right.

I feel a little insecure about meeting people and starting the whole dating again,mostly because I am exhausted of ‘the talking phase’.

I saw a tweet the other day where a girl said “she might have to blow her head off if she tells someone what her favorite color is one more time”…I truly believe I have gotten to that point.

I am not sure about any other single person,but for me,each time someone comes into my life and leaves or maybe I leave,or even I/they do not have an interest to pursue me on a romantic level;a piece of my heart leaves with them. It doesn’t mean I had fallen in love with said person,it is just the willingness to try again that keeps falling below the mark.

Where do I find the strength?

How do people do it?

Because I am failing terribly at this dating of a thing.

Very few people talk about the loneliness that comes with being Single. Nobody really talks about how it is cool to have self-love,go to the movies alone or maybe spoil yourself ‘by yourself’ type of shii but still come back ALONE. You look on your phone,and none of the notifications matter to you because it is not from your favorite person.

It sucks being single but I bet it’ll suck even more being in a relationship and not having/feeling any of these things,I believe it’s called companionship.

Oh wait,how about we talk about the sexual urges that comes with being single,every damn thing turns me on these days. Sitting in a bus,looking at my friends tits,putting some lotion on,EVERY DAMN THING.

I don’t know about you,but I need to be touched.

Hell,I want to be touched and I want it done by someone I am in deep connection with. I want to kiss ladies and gentlemen,passionately I should add but nah…it is not happening.

I am not being kissed without passion talk more of with it.

Being single SUCKS!!!

I hate this shii and I love this shii.

Why do I love this shii?

I got liberty Baby!

I could do whatever tf I wanted,whoever I want,however I wanted it(every single person’s anthem).

However,I do not mean this sexually alone but in every context there is. I am always thankful that I am single at this time in my life because not only has it given me clarity,but I have come a long way with my personal healing and the opportunity to meet A LOT of people who are beautiful in their own way.

I have experienced a lot of energies and connections in the space of 6 months,that I have lost count.

I am thankful for them but I still hate this shii.

I cannot be the only one who feels this way, because I started writing this post as a response to one of my friends but then,it has spiraled into this.

I guess it’s safe to say that this post is dedicated to my friend K.Giant,but I digress…my bad

We cannot act like it is easy being single because the twitter oppression by ‘relationship twitter’ itself has obviously gone out of hand🙄

How dare you be in a relationship and not keep it private? I didn’t ask for your dinner date pictures.

I do not care to see the surprise package you got from your boyfriend. TF!!! But keep posting though,I’m taking notes and I’ll do the same right back when I get cuffed up😂😝

Maybe this was a vent,but think about it,when have I written anything that wasn’t a vent?😂

I just would like you to know that it is okay to feel this way(I guess,don’t believe everything you read online)lmao but for real,it is really okay to feel lonely and need the assistance of someone because I feel it too and I am vocal enough to air it out for us both 🥰

But I think it is very important note,that you or anyone who is available to date, should do it as much as you can. It gets exhausting I get it,especially when you crave intimacy on a deeper level but you’ve got to keep going.

It is very okay to give yourself a break(when dating) because it gets overwhelming y’all and I agree 💯

You mustn’t be on the GO all the time

I think also that if it bothers you much(the circle of dating) then you need to retract and clear your head for as long as you want.

You deserve it but what you don’t deserve is to be unhappy,not while single and definitely not in a relationship. Find your happiness Baby❣️

Thank you so much for reading,I love you for it.